From Hopeless to Hope Dealer
For those caught in the struggle.
I’ve lived in my car, and my copilot was alcohol and drugs.
Even a couple years into my recovery journey I would still get nervous when cops were behind me, because of the residue and fear of living in active addiction for over a decade.
I’ve stared down the barrel of a gun that I was holding contemplating if life was worth living.
This sad reality happened more than once.
I’ve had multiple active warrants out for my arrest all at the same time.
I don't miss living in that fear.
I’ve gone a couple days without food because I used my last dollars for gas in the car.
And I thought that was how life was supposed to be lived.
I know what it’s like to hide in a dark room and pull a blanket over my head afraid of people and the sunlight.
My heart still goes out to people trapped in this dark reality.
BUT THEN GOD CAME ON THE SCENE...
I also know what it’s like to have all my legal consequences wiped clean in a day.
Only the grace of God could do that!
I also know what it’s like to be used by God to stop someone else from suicide while they were holding a noose.
From hopeless, to hope dealer...only God can do that.
I also know what it’s like to live over a decade drug and alcohol free.
When God enters onto the scene so does real freedom.
I also know what it’s like to love people so much that I chase them down on the street to pray for them sometimes.
Once you experience His love, you become possessed to give it away.