• Erik Frederickson - Life Coach and Recovery Coach

From Hopeless to Hope Dealer

For those caught in the struggle.

I’ve lived in my car, and my copilot was alcohol and drugs.

Even a couple years into my recovery journey I would still get nervous when cops were behind me, because of the residue and fear of living in active addiction for over a decade.

I’ve stared down the barrel of a gun that I was holding contemplating if life was worth living.

This sad reality happened more than once.

I’ve had multiple active warrants out for my arrest all at the same time.

I don't miss living in that fear.

I’ve gone a couple days without food because I used my last dollars for gas in the car.

And I thought that was how life was supposed to be lived.

I know what it’s like to hide in a dark room and pull a blanket over my head afraid of people and the sunlight.

My heart still goes out to people trapped in this dark reality.


I also know what it’s like to have all my legal consequences wiped clean in a day.

Only the grace of God could do that!

I also know what it’s like to be used by God to stop someone else from suicide while they were holding a noose.

From hopeless, to hope dealer...only God can do that.

I also know what it’s like to live over a decade drug and alcohol free.

When God enters onto the scene so does real freedom.

I also know what it’s like to love people so much that I chase them down on the street to pray for them sometimes.

Once you experience His love, you become possessed to give it away.